Remember the TV show Ally McBeal? I used to crack up at those moments when she would fantasize about doing something crazy or something harmful to one of the other characters. Ally would be all cool and calm on the outside, but on the inside she would be going F%$%^&# nuts! In my quest to control my impulsive behaviors lately, I’ve had numerous “Ally McBeal” moments. I find myself resisting the urge to do something crazy or cut up on those who upset or offend me. Unfortunately, I’m not always successful, I’m a fire sign, so by nature I’m prone to acting a damn fool when something doesn’t go my way. But as I’m getting older, I’m trying to bring my biological, mental and emotional ages in sync. This is a continual work in progress; daily I am tested with others’ nonsense.
After a weekend of being home with my kids and then having to deal with a poor customer service experience from Sprint, I am on the verge of having another Ally McBeal moment where I want to strangle some folks who I love very dearly…..However my sistah circle girlfriend, Keisha reminded me that I need to Relax Relate Release. I’ve used this phrase myself many times; it sounds great and I know that it’s possible, but the hurdles that I have to jump in order to be able to Relax, Relate, and then Release are seemingly insurmountable. True to myself, I’m not giving up, I’m not going to get in my car and drive far far far away from everyone and everything–yet. One day I’ll be able to Relax Relate Release without so many damn hurdles, one day….